Those two pink lines are always a shock. No matter how long you try to have a baby, or how badly you have been dreaming of the day you get pregnant, seeing the two lines leaves you with a flurry of emotions.
My own experience went something like this…
Extremely Happy.
Terrified.
In disbelief.
What did I get myself into?
I’m having a baby!
What do I do now?
Back to overwhelmingly blessed and happy.
and then I stared at the two lines for another 5 minutes to make sure one didn’t disappear. Or maybe it was too early and my eyes were playing tricks on me.
Nope, still there. Time to tell J.
J!!!! We’re pregnant!!!!!
… and then it was his turn to go through the race of emotions.
Two days later I am writing this, and if I was being completely honest, I don’t know if I believe it still. I’ve scheduled my first ultrasound for a few weeks from now and I’ve taken 2 pregnancy tests since, thinking that it’s somehow going to change.
I wanted this so badly, and now that it’s here I feel like I should be doing more, better prepared, and continually ask myself what’s next? I use to tell J that we had nine months once I was pregnant to prepare for baby, and now I am realizing how quickly that time is going to go and how much there is to do to welcome one more into your home.
I’m one of the lucky ones so far, if it wasn’t for those two pink lines I would have no idea I am pregnant. Sure, my boobs are a bit more sore to the touch (but not really), I have no sensitivity to smells or foods, I don’t feel bloated or achy (yet), the only thing that I am going off of are those two pink lines.
It says on the baby sites that my baby is the size of a poppy-seed this week. It also says that these next few weeks are the most important when it comes to brain development. It’s amazing how such a teeny tiny thing can be growing and developing so quickly.
What I miss the most: Coffee. My morning cup of Joe. Espresso. Dark Roast.
Symptoms: Peeing a lot… !
Stay tuned for more about the pre-pregnancy journey!
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